While a decision made from the heart is always the right one, it really pains me to say that I have decided to leave London and move back to Toronto. This wasn’t something I had been planning on doing at all, but with the current state of the U.K. (and the world), it seems like the best decision for the future.
I made the decision about a month ago and honestly, I still haven’t really come to terms with it. If you know me on a personal level, then you’re aware of how much I love this city and how much I have loved living here. Just thinking about saying goodbye is breaking my heart…
The past two years have just flown by and it has been an experience of a lifetime. I’m so grateful for the opportunity to move to such a vibrant city filled with people from all over the world. I’ve had the opportunity to travel to some amazing places in Europe and have made lifelong friends during my time here.
I also was lucky enough to have met the love of my life, and leaving him behind and doing long distance is making this move all the more difficult. I will be able to come visit him while he waits for his visa to be processed, which is something to look forward to at least.
During my time here and with the pandemic we’re all facing right now, I’ve learned that a lot of us take life for granted and are too focused on “the checklist”. There is no single way to live your life. From a young age, we’re told that money, marriage and a mortgage are the most important things. Well, I’m here to tell you that they are not the ONLY important things.
There’s so much more out there in the world for you to experience, and while it is scary to drop everything and move half way across the world to a foreign country where you know no one, it’s something I’d highly recommend. It will push you out of your comfort zone, yes, but you’ll also discover a whole other side to who you are when you’re not constantly surrounded by your family, friends and normal daily life routine. There’s a world out there to be seen and experience – take advantage of that (when we’re past the pandemic and you’re able to safely travel again, of course).
You can read about my move to London and how I did it here.
Last Few Weeks
The month of June was really hard for me. I stopped exercising, spent most of my day binging Netflix, and Disney, ate a lot of junk to make myself feel better (it did), and cried almost every morning, afternoon and/or night.
Now that it’s July and I’m starting to accept the fact that I’ll be headed back to Canada in a few weeks, I’m trying really hard not to over-analyze the past or stress about the unknown ahead. I’m trusting my heart and my gut in knowing that this is the best decision for me right now. London will always be here, and I can always move back when things are better if I wanted.
I’m going to be making the most of my remaining days by spending time with my boyfriend and friends. I also plan on visiting some of my favourite parts of London, as well as take a few short day trips to other cities in England.
I hope you’re all keeping safe and healthy during this time. If you too are being forced to make difficult decisions that you’re nervous about, remember that nothing is permanent and this journey is meant for you.